About Me

"No one is in control of your happiness."

Michelle, 17. I'm not who you think I'm supposed to be, I'm not as strong as you think and I'm not as happy as you think I am. I blog for satisfaction, and hopefully, I may be able to inspire/help others out there.
I tweet about everything at @ @Ahlinq. and I share my moments HERE :D

Saturday, June 19, 2010



Hey guys, I feel better alr. thanks to the ppl that was thr to give me some advice, comfort me and tell jokes :p
I wanna thank you guys so much hehe, at least I know im not alone . :]

Well, I was rather shock to know that you would read my blog. Thanks for the advice.
I wouldn't type you name out but you know who you are.
You give great advices, since you gave them, why don't you use them as well?
As what you've said in your sms, there is bound to be one true friend out there.
so yeah, don't be so depress, people wouldn't wanna be near you if you're too emo.
I hope you get the point. thanks for the advice . god bless .

Tq venus,mushroom(yi ken), joyce(kk hospital), baby, someone and PSB(tag).

I actually lost my mood this morning over her but i regretted it .
i think im being too... sensitive i guess . oh well . :/

Friday, June 18, 2010

Hey guys, sorry for not posting for soo long again :/
It's been 16days lols ! wow, 1st week of hols to almost the last week of hols no post .
wahaha . Hmms, let's see . had been chionging maple, chionging hwk and studying with baby :p .
yeap, see. so guai hor. study lehs, so rare wor . @@ okay luh . more confidence in those
negative and positive number le . :] . around 1 more week to schooling again .
gonna enjoy myself . :D soo, yeaps . going to update abit bahs .
Hmms . forget majority of the outings le but basically alone at home rot luh .

so, went out for lunch, escape and lib on the first few weeks .
had aesthethic nite on 11th if not wrong . went rp with jingyi, sexslave, reen and nat .
the performance was wonderful . romantic . :D 9/10
band wasn't very loud hehes . mayb cus we're sitting at the last 2nd row lols .
and surprisingly the mysterious performance was mr justin singing o_o
ms thia also have . then tabitha got come be mc also lols !

after 11th forget le . but mostly is lunch outing with venus and jing nia .
others so busy schooling, ccas and tuition T-T .
so yeah, the only thing i did was maple and maple loh . lazy to update blog also . :\

okays, looking forward to 22nd s9 outing . :] miss everyone so much .
miss slps , miss mdm rita, miss the food. T_T
hope everything will turn out fine . :/
alrights, ending my post here with loves .


you were such a good friend.
but once we leave for diff sch, you changed so much .
leave me out once you have guy friends .
being so flirty infront of guys .
being so horny infront of guys .
totally neglect me . all you think abt was guys .
going out with guys . spending time with them .
i seriously dunno if i shud cont being your friend .
you've changed so much ...
despite having a bf......
they think im more happy in secondary life.
yes i am, but no im not. because you're nt here with me.
we promised to not let ea other down and to stand by ea other
and not let other ppl come between us. but you didnt keep you promise.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010


Hellos peoples . Something really weird and scary just happened to me this morning @ 2am .
Alrights, I'll update first then elaborate on what happened . :/

okays, so, it's holidays for you guys now but definitely not for me . Cause I have band camps,
remedials and all this things. Waking up in the morning @ 6 is definitely a routine. -.-

But it's okay . :D So, thurs went to school and did nothing for PE .
Then during ICT lessons, cher let us do our own stuffs.  ^^''
so yeahs, then not much luhs . Thens i think after ICT is english, cant rmb.
forget what we did . :B but we got back our report cards and early dismissal!! ^^v
yays, okays, so I got back my report card . the result wasn't that good.. infact its damn bad .
last 3rd in class . .___. failed 2 subs instead of 3 . phew . :/

stayed at home for sat and sun . so fking guai hor . :D ^^v
guaiguai went for band on mon too . ~_~ pssst . listened to seniors play trumpets .
my senior idk his name, alot of notes dunno d lohs. then i ask also like never ask like that -.- sian.

thens had sectionals . slacked . ^^v
then went home @ 5 ~~~

went to lib with baby and baby's sis on tues . :D
did our hwks and revision . ^^' then went home .

okays, so i went home @ 7 like that . thens had dinner  then slept @ arnd 12am .
thens @ arnd 2am, someone or SOMETHING woke me up.
okays, so, i heard this tapping sound. At first I thought it was an insect that went berserk
and continuously tap on my stuffs, walls, doors. but then about 2mins later i realized.
EH, CANT BE LEH. just now after my dinner i went into the room, there's a huge bee
that's flying all around. then 5mins later it flew out of my window so i closed all the windows.

thens when i sleep, i close door also. then how come insect can come in?
thens i felt very very cold. like, something is blowing air at me .
like, someone watching you . so i didn't dare to move a bit and pretended to be asleep.
thens inside my heart, i was chanting prayers. like, 10times?
then the tapping stop. then i stop chanting.
THEN IT CAME BACK AGAIN!
then i spam the prayers in my heart. very very very scary.
I WAS ALONE IN MY ROOM. :/
okays, the tapping stopped. my prayers cant stop cause I really very scare .

memories of uncle and that 'thing' flashed through my mind .
what happened, why was i dare and how it end ...
some of you might know this. (those close to me)
and, it is really very scary luh >_>
then I hid myself under my blanket .

and fall asleep ...
thens @ 6am, mum came to wake me up for medicine . (ppl close to me will know:D)
finally, someone's in my room . :/ took my med and rushed out .
dad was preparing to leave for work .
i told him what happened and begged for him to stay .
he don't believe me and went to work .
told mum and begged her to stay too .
but she went to work too .

alone at home... with that thing or dunno what thing that has been tapping stuffs ..
dun dare do anything and just hid myself under my blanket . :/
falled asleep  , woke up at 10 and decided to leave house to find jing .
if there's really something in the house, i wouldn't want to be with it ALONE! -.-

prepared to go out till 11 . thens baby woke up . so changed plan and decided to
meet baby :D ! went to lib with him and his sis again . then went to eat .
then jing decide to come ~
then she came to find me and start crying >_> .
shan't elaborate here . but i wasn't the one who made her cry luh .
then i tried to comfort her . but fail . she doesn't want to tell me who made her cry too .
>_> then she went off . thats basically the end . :DDD

okayyyyy. @_@ sayonara.