Hey there! It's been such a long time since I've REALLY updated about my life HAHAHA.
Well, life's boring and I've been struggling with some stuffs... Was a little hesitated to post but anyways, I'm here right now. Time check: 1.40am. Hahaha. Yes. I'm not sleeping... YET.
I'm kind of motivated to blog because of one strong girl, and this song HAHA.

Okay, I'm just trying to be hyper all by myself LOL.

Life's pretty normal and bored I guess! My streaming result's out and sadly, I didn't get A-math. Took FnN instead ._. omg. Can you believe it?! The only real FOOD that I know how to cook properly is... MAGGIE, and sometime, it gets burnt too o_o idk why, probably cause I didn't stir?! I can't even perfect the beauty of cracking an egg and, I don't even know how to fried an egg properly LOL. WELL, to think on the bright side... wait. THERE'S NO BRIGHT SIDE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I have to memorize and understand a lot about food?! AND I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO COOK. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
&^%$#@!$#%$&^*&^%@#$@#$#%$#%$ gah whatever.

I got into 3E4! :D Happy much. I chose that class, because my results ain't that good and I'm a slow learner. SO, E4's a better choice for me rather then E3 I guess :D. I don't think I can get into E3 anyways LOL. Well, the good thing is, lots of 2E2 people are in 3E4 next year, as in, those really hyped ones! But, for some reason... I'm worried as well LOL. Contradict much. >_>"

Okay, I kinda forget what happened already. Too many events happened and I didn't have time or mood to blog about them LOL. Anyways, I had this, BAD EAR INFECTION FOR ABOUT 1 MONTH.
Just recovered like, yesterday, but not fully -.- . So, I don't know why I got the infection anyways. I mean, I didn't even touch my ear that week or have any new piercings. So, my ear was blocked. YES. BLOCKED
FROM INSIDE and I couldn't hear ANYTHING from my left year that month. It was... scary...
I thought I was gonna be like that forever. But luckily it recovered. Doc gave me loads of antibiotics, painkillers and ear drops. The ear drops smells REAL BAD and whenever I use it on my ear, I can like,
taste it in 30minutes. IT'S SO DAMN %^$#@$#^%$^ and then a few hours later, my ear will be blocked by BLACK dead skins and I always use a q-tip to dig them out LOL.

My hearing was real bad for the last month. Okay la, not month, about 2~3weeks I guess and I felt so helpless. The pain hurts alot. ALOT and even the strongest painkillers won't stop the pain that much -.-'.
BUT I'M GLAD I'M OKAY NOW.

I went to 2E2'11's chalet a few days/weeks back. It was fun! xD Epic shit cause on that day, SOMEONE GOT CHASED BY DOG WHILE WE'RE ON OUR WAY TO SOMEWHERE HAHAHAHA.
Didn't stay over cause I didn't bought my med along, so, I went home at about 10+ with Wan Xuan and You Liang. ^^  Guess I'll really miss 2E2 alot. All the crazy retard shits that we did. Lols.
oh well. I'm really looking forward to sec3 too at the same time! 8D

Had "voluntary" work on 13nov at expo! IT WAS REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL TIRING OMG. I stood for like, 5 hours. BUT, I enjoyed it cause I pedo-ed at the cute little dogs 8D Oh yes, I'm a pedophile and I like + eat small children and pets. >:] Nahjk.

So, I was stationed at this.. gaming place for kids! 8D IT WAS AMAZING LOL. Stupid me thought that the computers was for pets to use cause I thought it was a "pet" show day where everything is for pets LOL. How dumb can I get omg >_>. So anyways, the games are for KIDS 8D. There weren't much kids but omg, they're more then enough to make me have headache LOL! They kept asking me how to play when I don't even know what game/how to play it cause I didn't, in my entire life tried it LOL.
Anyways, there's this. PET MAN. :D IT'S ADDICTIVE D< and there's some weird games which I don't know how to play. So I just blabbered some nonsense to them >_< They're very interested in those games LOL. Some clever kids know how to read instructions and understand them. :D Unlike me. LOL. The instructions makes no sense to me. I'm too dumb to understand them LOL.

Had a 30minutes break at around 1.30pm. Me, joyce and cherlynn headed to bk for lunch. x] then, we eat like a boss and head back! "knocked off" at around 4pm and received $10 LOL. awesome much 8D.
Walked around the expo like a boss and headed home next with qianling and yihui.
We had some heart to heart talks on the mrt and... THEY'RE AWESOME PEOPLE :').
I bet I'll really miss them in sec3... cause I know, I won't really contact them as much as now.

oh well, yesterday, Venus called me at 12.30pm and woke me up.... for lunch. Prepared and headed out at 1pm and we took bus to siling primary. x] saw Ivy and we kinda.. messed around si ling LOL. We actually wanted to go in by saying we're here to fetch our sist LOL. BUT. WE FAILED CAUSE WE SAID WE'RE TRYING TO FETCH OUT BRO THE LAST TIME, AND THE TIME BEFORE LAST TIME, WE SAID WE'RE HERE TO FETCH OUR FRIEND LOLLLLLLLLLLLL. ._________________.' They seriously need to change the guard! Went to the nearby coffee shop and had our lunch. Headed back to causeway for Yami yogurt and slacked at macs while we waited for jing. BUT ANYWAYS, Jing was mia and SO, we went to my house instead! Venus is totally in love with my fluffy and comfy sofa LOL. She didn't want to leave my sofa for about 2hours even though Jing already called me up and told me that she's on her way to venus' house LOL. WHAT A TOTAL JERK DUDE~

Anyways, we were both lying on the sofa and talking about........ Biology >:] y'know. Biology stuffs LOL.
We had great laughs and at around 6, we FINALLY went to find Jing. xD. Bought chips + eggtarts and took bus to casablanka cause it was raining heavily. Changed into swimsuit and we went to the pool~
It was still raining then and the water's freezing cold, but too bad, venus needa swim 25mins cause she has this exercise schedule thingy LOL.

So, being the -ahem- KIND and GOOD Michelle, I decided to test the water for them! :D I walked along the pool to see if the water's really that cold. It wasn't and I decide to jump into the pool!
SO, I was deep breathing for diving HAPPILY when THIS VENUS JERK PUSH ME AND I FELL FACE PLANT INTO THE POOL AND CHOKE ON THE WATER. FML LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
Played around in the pool and went to the smaller pool. THEN. I HAD MY REVENGE WAHAHA. Although I failed at the first try, but i succeeded anyways! So, I tried pushing her into the pool but SHE'S LIKE A ROCK AND DIDN'T EVEN BULGED LOL. Then, she tried to push me into the pool instead BUT, JING HELPED PULL ME BACK AND HELPED ME 8D. Then venus changed target and tries to push me and jing into the pool. But anyways, I kinda "fell down". nah, actually, I squatted to keep my balance and THE TWO OF THEM FELL IN TO THE WATER LIKE A BOSS HAHA.

swam a few rounds and went to this sauna thingy LOL. It was mad hot. because. It's. a. sauna.
went up, bathed and had dinner! watched some movie by the name "100 days with mr arrogant" with venus and jing then home sweet home next!

THATS IT. :D well. I seriously think I needa cut my fringe soon. It's kinda growing longer and poking my eye! >:[ . Needa reborn my hair too. gosh, I need money and time.
-yes, I only zilian 2days LOL, achievement unlocked!-

okay, till the next post. ciaos!

Think, when you were still a kid. Everything is possible.  You put the blanket over, then you become a SUPERMAN.  You take your mom's broom and ride on it, then you become a WITCH.
You climb up the tree, not knowing you might fall. You simply made it.
You just had an idea and it happened because you believed, you were then, creative with strong belief.

As you became an adult, things seems to be a little different. When you failed in your exam,
you think "I can never make it". When you have a brilliant marriage proposal,
then you think "maybe its not the right time...". When you want to start a business
you think "maybe its not as easy". When you are already in the business,
you heard someone says "DO NOT TAKE RISK"
then when you have a brilliant idea that can create more jobs for poorer nations, can prove a better living options for more people, can make our nation PROUD, can help the growth of our nation and can create a better world, you said, "I'm not sure..."

You are still creative but with more doubts. Then, years later you heard someone had the same idea as yours.
what makes him different from you??? His actions.. he put his ideas to reality.
He's the most promising creative young entrepreneur of year. His action won him this recognition
Then you start to think, "How I wished I had taken action that year ago" ...
Think when you were a kid, that idea came by when you were still a kid, could you have taken action???
when back then you strongly believe, it is never too late you just need to have a idea and make it happen
you still can... if you believe.  Creativity starts from belief.

Ahahaa, I didn't miss 11.1.11 :D
Currently sick. 38.9 Wtf and I'm using ipodt to blog now.
Shall sleep. :D

Because I am not pretty enough.
Because I am not skinny enough.
Because I don't have long and beautiful legs.
Because I don't have big boobies.
Because I don't have a nice temper.
Because I don't have a nice nose.
Because I don't have the small and v shaped face.
Because I don't have good academic results.
Because I am not rich.
Because I'm just not good enough.




Atelophobia
The fear of imperfection. The fear of never being good enough.





Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible.