New year resolution 2012

Happy new year eve everyone! ^^
Few hours to go, and New Year 2012 will be here. With the advent of new year, a new era begins and with it comes new hopes and new possibilities. Every year teaches us some of life's most important lessons, and with that learning we put our step forward into the new year. In 2011, I've learnt many important lessons, many new stuffs, met many new friends and did many new things. So here's a little summary of what I've done this year.

Good things:
- More independent.
- More socialize and outings.
- Less sensitive!
- Less easily offended
- A little more helpful lolol
- Less awkward

Bad things:
- Gotten fat =3=
- Didn't do very well for exams.
- More rebellious
- More worries!
- Bad time managements.

Lesson learnt? :
Many.


And for last year's resolution...

1. I'll concentrate on CCA and studies.
2. I'll try to minimize my time of using the laptop.
3. I'll be more independent!!!
4. I'll improve attendance in school.
5. I'll change my attitude!

Okay, so I'm left with the 1st one on list... So, I'm going to make a new year resolution and hopefully complete all of them before 2013. :D

So yeah, here goes!

1. I shall study hard and play harder ^^ !
2. Stay positive!
3. SLIM DOWN! I've gained a some fats in my arm and belly area! ):
4. Manage time better!
5. Enjoy life more!
6. Be more organized.
7. Forget him and fucking move on.
8. To be more happy.
9. Health to improve.
10. Complete everything before 2013.

Yeah! :D That's all for my 2012 resolution HAHAHA. My 2011 Resolutions here : http://emptin-ess.blogspot.com/2011/01/2011-new-year.html .

Day 14, something disgusting I do and Making brownies with jing, venus!

OKAY THIS POST IS A LITTLE DISGUSTING CAUSE OF THE 30 DC QUESTION LOL! 

Venus and me met up first on 23rd for lunch and to buy ingredients to make brownies! Met her outside SASA and headed to mac for lunch cause she felt like eating McWings! Lols. Jing came afterwards and we went to cold storage to get her stuffs and of course, the ingredients to make brownies! ^^ Head down to Venus' house afterwards and made brownies. :D

Okay, looks disgusting :x But it's actually pretty nice okay! And, It's the first time I've ever made brownies. So, can pass. Right? :B Sooooo, we made like, 6 trays of brownies cause we have too many people that we wanted to bake brownies for! Venus' and Jing kept playing with ipad and yeah! about 75% of the work is done by me! :D I'm proud! AND I'M TAKING CREDITS WAHAHA.
Okay, they did help out with  putting the tray into the oven cause I'm a little afraid of the oven LOL.

And tada! It's done! :B Does it look good? Okay not really... BUT IT'S NICE HOR! :D I SWEAR! :B

Unglams of venus HAHAHAHAHA. Okay, she always never fail to make my day. :') I love you Venus! And you too jing! :D

Oh and whoever that gets the brownie, HEY I STOOD 8 HOURS MAKING THE BROWNIES! D:< YOU BETTER FINISH THEM ALL. OKAY NOUGH SAID. :D FINISH THEM ALL! ^_^

Day 14, 30 Day Challenge - Something disgusting I do.

I always get dry skin and.. I always pluck them? I think that's disgusting :B But I just can't stop cause y'know, it's like when you see a scar on your leg and you didn't want it to be there. You'll just try to rub it off or something, and in my case, I pluck it off and then it bleeds, and then the scar is there! Lols.
Okay, I'm trying my very best to stop plucking them now and applying lotions. So yeah. :D

Day 13, A date I would love to go on.

Day 13, 30 Day Challenge - A date you would love to go on


Hmm, this one is kind of tough to me but I'm okay with any dates! As for a date that I'd really really love to go on to.. hmm. This probably depends on the guy/girl and the mood I'm in! But, at the moment I’m thinking a date I’d like to go on would include doing something outside like biking, hiking etc and just talking about life and such things, and maybe end it with a movie or something? I don’t know, I’m pretty laid back when it comes to dates. I don’t really care what activities we do or where we go so much as I care about spending time with that person more! :D

Outing with shirleen and Jiaqi

Helloo! This post was actually meant to be posted before Christmas, but somehow, I was too lazy to write and upload all the pictures! Well, anyways, I want at least some of my pictures in blogger so I could review them when I'm older next time and laugh at myself now. :D So anyways, December's a very nice, epic, awesome, fun month for me and my schedules are pretty packed. From outings to having my consultation with the docs, nurse, etc etc. So anyways, I went out with Shirleen and Jiaqi to buy school uniform on 22nd dec If not wrong and It was damnnnnn epic! Many funny stuffs happened and yeah :B I totally enjoyed my day!

and we camwhored way too much LOL! There's like, 200plus pictures LOL! So anyways, I was actually gonna buy ingredients to make chocolate. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE CHOCOLATE! So I called Gareth when he's sleeping to ask him LOL. And his instructions ain't clear D:< So. I gave up! Went home empty handed ): and planned to make some other stuffs!

Okay, I totally enjoyed my day with the 2 szb over there! ^^ Entering sec 3 with them. But sadly, different class. ): Ending my "Outing with shirleen and Jiaqi" 's post here! Next post would be on baking brownies and of course, the 30 days challenge! ^^ Continue reading my blog you awesome readers! :B

Oh, and I finally hit 70 views a day! ^^ Happy. Thank you. That's my highest so far and It's kinda constant now. 65~70 hits a day. I know it's low, but I'm contented. Thank you! awesome readers :B.

Christmas with cousins and Jing. (:

Helloooooooos ! This post will be a short post cause I just want to post this pictures to blogger. :B There'll be another one on my trip to Universal Studios soon! Okayyyy, not trying to show off or what, but I just want the pictures to appear in blogger so I can look back at them when I'm a little older. :D

Anyways, hit town on Christmas with cousins. One of my cousin was on vacation so, we bought her around and only camwhored in Orchard hehe.

So, on Christmas Eve, they actually went to Orchard for countdown but went home at 11 plus because there's just too much people and it's hard to walk LOL. While me and Jing was at Tiong Bahru.. in some house partying LOL. Jing was lucky, she won the lucky draw and got a vacuum flask LOL. Oh yeah! Before the party, we went to IMM's daiso and got some cheap presents. LOL. We were actually a little tight on budget that day so yeah. :x But the present's very useful and chio okay, and we wrapped them up nicely! ^^" So, after lucky draw, we went for christmas presents exchange! And guess what!? Jing got a couple keychain! :D and me? I got a CK Perfume LOL.
I KNOW. I KNOW. $2 in exchange with a perfume. Oh my fucking god. lololol. The party was awesome, we get to befriend with some other people. so yeah. :B Home afterwards.l

Day 12, Things I want to say to an ex

Day 12 - Things you want to say to an ex.

Things I want to say to an ex? Hmmm... Then this post shall be dedicated to that ex then.

I hope you're having fun right now! I still haven't got the chance to pass you the brownies I made you yet because you're so busy that you have no time for me. :/ Guess I'll pass you on the 1st day of 2011 then...

We only lasted for a few weeks but those few weeks were one of the best weeks in my entire life. I don't know what went wrong and.. I'm sorry for initiating the break up! I wasn't in the correct mindset that day, and surprisingly, you could agree to my breakup request so easily.. Do you remember our promise? ... your promise.. I bet you don't. You promised that you won't leave me or break up with me even If I asked you to. And the reason we made this promise? It's because you know that I'll always push people away when I'm in my "Depressed" cycle.

Hah, so dumb. To think that you'd still read my blog. Naive much? to think that you're still a little in love with me deep down inside. Naive much? .......

Remember? You told me you're in relationship with some girls. Though I felt jealous. I really did feel happy for you. I mean c'mon. Though I don't deserve the love from you, other people do right? and of course, you deserve theirs. I'm just happy for you. And I want you to be happy, with, or without me. ;) and sorry, I can't forget you, but I'm still trying to move on.

Day 11, Current relationship and how single life is

I''ve officially finished my 10 days challenge! ^~^ From ten loves to one picture. One challenge DONE! 

Mad happy! :D So, here's the 30 days challenge!

Day 11, 30 Days challenge - My current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

My current relationship?

Yeap, I'm hungry now. Hehehehe. Okay this is totally no link to the question but anyways. I'm still hungry :D
So, back to the question! My current relationship? Hmmm.. I'd say it's complicated cause it really is. .___. Currently single thought but.. I wish I'm taken. Single life is good I'd say. But somehow, it's a little boring cause I've been single for quite some time. Single life is how you make it. Sure, I get lonely from time to time. At the end of the day, I’m the only person who can make myself really happy. I really enjoy single life. No one to worry about etc. But, I get lonely from time to time because I wanted to cuddle, late night phone calls, hugs, cliche romantic things…blaaahh.

I always feel like this whenever I see any sweet couples. It's not that I'm desperate for love, relationship or anything. But, I just feel lonely and a little sick of being single. I'd love to be in a relationship, get my heart broken due to arguments,  miss the guy who broke my heart and continue loving that guy. :/
but oh well, I’m sure one day I will find someone who is just as crazy and stupid as I am. hah. (:

Day 10, One picture of myself and my views on drugs & alcohol.

Day 10, 10 Day YOU Challenge - One picture of yourelf

I don't know why. But I kinda like this picture alot. Probably cause I was happier and my smile was genuine? Like, a genuine smile but I covered it lol. Can you see a thousand words from here? If you can, bravo. Cause I don't see any and I don't know what to say. okthxbb! ^^

Day 10, 30days challenge - Your views on drugs and alcohol

I think that drugs are really bad cause it harms your health, your body and your mentality. I don't really like people that take drugs especially my friends because I don't want them to damage their own bodies. But anyways, I still respect and love them even if they take drugs. I'd just hope that they'll stop taking them some day. As for alcohol, I think it's okay to drink once awhile lah. Those hard-core alcoholics are... scary. lolol
I'D STILL RESPECT AND LOVE THEM ANYWAYS. so yeah. I think it's okay if you take drugs and alcohol! But just don't take in too much! ^^

Day 9. two songs and my last kiss.

Day 9, 10 Day YOU Challenge - Two songs

Only two? This will be hard.. anyway, this is the 2 top fav song of mine currently.

1) Stereo love by Edward Maya and vika Jigulina

2) Angel with a shotgun by The cab

Day 9, 30 Day Challenge - Your last kiss

My last kiss was TERRIBLE! T_T That jerk kept flirting me and even though I ignored him afterwards, he found me in the library with jing at the cafe. He very thick-skinned and just sat beside me and wouldn't go away! ._. There wasn't any other place there and so me and jing was stuck!
I ordered coke, choked on it and accidently stained myself! So I went to the washroom at level 2 cause there's less people! Then this guy followed me all the way and while on the escalator, he hugged and forced kiss me -.- I tried to break away but he's so fucking strong so I kicked him in the nuts, almost lost my balance and fell off the escalator. But I manage to steady myself and runaway ._.' fuck you you fucking niggar. Luckily he didn't manage to get it. If not I'LL fucking kill you. Wherever you are, I hope you die! Get bang by car, eaten by some wild animals, IDC. You should die, and rot in hell bastard.

Day 8 - Three films and something I'm currently worrying about.

Day 8, 10 Day YOU Challenge ; three films

Just three films? This will be hard lol. I've watched thousands of movies/films! Kinda have alot of favorites.
Guess I'll just go with the movie that i've watch countless of time.

1) Spirited away

This movie is, amazing! If you haven't watch it, I'd suggest you go and watch it :3

2) How to tame your dragon

Another amazing, cute and funny movie! :D

3) Kaiji

okay, It's actually a anime but I prefer the movie! :D It's somewhat like, a thrilling movie!

Day 8, 30 Day Challenge - Something you're currently worrying about.

I have a lot on my mind this week. Some stuff that I cannot share at the moment, and some that's just... daily worries or something haha. Hopefully the worrying is not a waste of time and everything works out in my favor.

Okay, first, I'm worried that my school uni will be out of stock cause I havent bought my uniform and I don't want to wear sailor moon back to school on the first day of sec3 ! D:< I can borrow from other people, but I'm still worried. so yeah LOL.
Second, I'm worried for my kor! Because he has some issues with some girls. so.. though whenever he texts me I would appear cold or like nothing to say, but i really do worry for him! x_x
Third, I'm worried about myself... cause I can't seem to communicate with him at all. He's all cold and.. distant. Something like "so near, yet so far" lols.
fourth, I'm worried about school! LOL. School reopen in just.. 2 weeks time. nervous. nervous nervous.
and fifth, MONEY! D:<

Day 7 ; Four books and my opinion on cheating people

Day 7, 10 Day YOU Challenge - Four books

1. Twilight series! (Twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn)
Need I say much? I just love this series of books alot! :DD

2. Harry potter
I just loveee their stories okay.

3. True singapore ghost stories
Okayyyyy, i love the stories ever since I was a little kid. :D

4. Low kay hwa's books.
Love every, single book. :x

Day 7, 30 Day Challenge - Your opinion on cheating people


Cheating on people is just wrong. A simple explanation would be, how would you feel when you've been cheated by someone else? Boyfriend/girlfriend/friends/family/anyone just doesn't deserve it. I know there are people out there (I even know some) who cheat on their girlfriends by doing "double timing". My opinion is, why have two girlfriends at all? For boys, it might be a "status show-off" that he has more than one girlfriend, but imagine what the girl would feel like if she came to know about it. If the relationship isn't working, I'd suggest get it over with as soon as possible, and then move on to some other girl/boy. Same goes for people who cheat on their families.

Day 6; The person I like, Why I like them and five foods.

Day 6, 1O Day YOU Challenge - five foods

1. KFC'S EGGTART
okay, this eggtart here always never fail to make me go hyper! D:< though it's really fattening, I STILL LOVE IT! ^^ .

2. Laksa without chilli 
I KNOW, I KNOW. I don't know how to eat spicy stuffs! Even pepper is too spicy for me! But JUST nowadays, I'm madly in love with the Laksa at blk 137 ! ^^ Laksa without chilli, that's how I order from the uncle LOL. It's not that spicy.. and it's nice! ^^

3.Yami yogurt
TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH YAMI YOGURT! :D ABSOLUTE FAVORITE.


4.  CHOCOLATE MILK! 
Is chocolate milk considered as a food? o_O okay la idc! I LOVE MEIJI'S CHOCOLATE MILK! :D

5. Ajisen Ramen! 
PORK CURRY RAMEN *_* YUMMMM~ and once again! IT'S NOT THAT SPICY. :D okay maybe a little. But there's water! hehe.

Day 6, 30 Day Challenge - The person you like and why you like them?

Hmm... The person I like? I’m currently not interested in anyone right now. That's what I always tell people. But, I lied. I've never lost any feelings or interest for him.. though I thought I already gave up and lost feelings for him, I didn't. I shall not name the person because, this is very personal. I can be telling everyone who I like etcetc last time but, just not this time. And this person, is definitely not yi ken. No matter how much I lied to myself, that I love some other guys, I can only convince myself for a few days, and that stupid person would appear again in my mind and take control of me. Okay, that happened just a few months ago. He doesn't appear as frequent as before now. So I guess my feelings did fade a little.

Why do I like him?

I don't know. I just like him and his everything I guess. He's funny, cute, sweet, caring, assholic and always there for me in the past. He's just, perfect!
And if you're reading this, I love you! And I hope that you find your happiness soon. ^^

"to let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only mean that you allow that someone to find his/her own happiness." -Albert Einstein





Love and Life by Albert Einstein

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving; it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.
Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love, that doesn’t mean you failed in love.
Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive, no past so bitter that love cannot accept, and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

Day 5 ; Six places and 5 things that irritate me about the opposite sex/same sex

10 Day YOU Challenge, Day 5 - Six Places

Im not sure what to write for this one cause Im not sure in what way they mean places, and Ive never really been anywhere much, so, I guess I'll just put some random places that Id like to go, but honestly, Id like to see everywhere! ^^

1) JAPAN
THERE'S LOADS OF PRETTY AND HANDSOME PEOPLE D:<

2) KOREA
SAME AS JAPAN!

3) AUSTRALIA

4) EGPYPT

5) SOUTH AMERICA
I see loads of pretty pics from there! Really wanna visit. :B

6) DUBAI

Day 5, 30 days challenge -5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex


Girls
1. Girls that say "Don't understand why people so 爱美want make-up. so unnatural! " blablabla. Even though I don't put on makeup much, those statements PISS me off cause no one's natural, everybody is爱美 one, if not, you don't wear clothes la? Be natural. Don't tie hair or dye hair la? Be natural. Don't brush teeth la!! Just be natural like when you're just born la? be naked all the way. natural. -.-

2. How self-conscious we all are. We’re all beautiful, we just don’t always see it and how some of us put way too much make-up on. Make-up is like this illusion in my opinion because it makes some girls think they aren’t pretty enough without it when in reality, they really are. Now something to enhance a certain physical feature like eyes or lips or something, that’s fine! I’m talking about like straight up gunk all over their face, makeup TOO overload.

3. Jealousy. So many girls seem to be jealous of others. There’s no need for it.

4. when they take pictures with their boobs hanging out way too much, have some self respect unless you're a pornstar or something.

 5. Drama queens. Need I say more?

Guys

 1. They don't get period or period cramps! It's not fair D:<

 2. when they act different with you when they're with their mates.

 3. when they lie to you to keep you happy, when they know they should tell you what's up. Basically, just not being honest.

 4. That a lot of them don’t take initiative to do things.

5. THEY DON'T GET FAT EASILY LIKE US. ROAR!!!!!!!

Back to Layang and grandma's 100th day.. ;')

Went back to Malaysia on Tuesday and took the 6.45pm train to Layang! Mommy and I camwhored on the train cause we were too bored. Come to think of it, this is the first time I've ever taken so many pics with mommy! :/ My only pic with mommy is when I was a little kid, when I was 11 and 12. We don't really take much pics together!

2008.

2009 or 2010!

2009 or 2010!

and 2011! ^^ My mommy look so much prettier now compared to last time right?! hehe. ^^

so anyways, we fell asleep soon after and the stupid train broke down!!!!! So we're stuck at 2 stations before layang for freaking 2hours... .__> . We were supposed to reach at 9.30pm cause the journey is about 2hour+ and we reached at about 12 midnight!!!!! T_T

mummy told dad that I was very well behaved this time round and instead, she was the one being impatient LOL. Oh well! THANKS TO SUDOKU! I was so engrossed in playing with the numbers that I totally lost track of the time when the train was being fixed! ^^ okay. I'm always impatient when we go back to Malaysia cause I cannot sit still in the train/car/bus for 1hr+. lololol~ Achievement unlocked! I'm so proud of myself  LOOOOOOOOOL. nahjk.

So, we reached layang at about 12midnight and when I jumped off the train at the station, the first thing I heard was my cousins screaming "可可" at the top of their lungs! LOOOL. Totally make my day :B!
oh, 可可 is my nick in Layang and also, to 2 special childhood angels.. which I kinda didn't contact them already. :/ so yeah! ^^ It's actually a name given by buddha to me when I was a kid! So.. It's a special name.

Anyways, Anna came and fetch us back to grandma's house her house as we're staying over at their place that night cause my dad booked the 住家at the wrong date and the date can't be changed! roar. So, we left our stuffs my grandma's room and chat. Then, Min min came to find me! ^^ She knows I'm scared to go find her at midnight so she personally come fetch me to her house LOL! Then, I ATE HER MANGO PUDDING! she made mango pudding specially for me. omggg I'm so touched! D: and the pudding was AWESOMELY SWEET. ^^ Then, we slacked awhile and she fetched me back to Anna's house! ^^

I was dead tired by then and I fell asleep in grandma's room, with shufen beside me. It was about 3am at that time. Mommy and daddy was on the other side sleeping vertically while me and shufen slept horizontally on another mattress LOL. I woke up at about 5am cause I was cold! Mommy snatched my blanket away and the fan was at full power! I was sleeping on my left side, so I flipped myself to shufen AND HAD THE BIGGEST SHOCK OF MY LIFE! shufen was sitting up and sleeping with her mouth open! Totally scared me! >_> Managed to control my scream LOL. It was real soft luckly. If not, I think I will wake the whole family up. x_X

Wore my jacket and went back to sleep! Woke up at 6.30am to prepare for grandma's 100th day. We had to go to layang's cemetery and I didn't bring my jeans! Luckily 大姨 lend me 小云cousin's pants lololol. If not, I might have suffered from more mosquito bites! roar. okayyy so, we did some rituals in the house with master and then head to layang's cemetery. It was rather creepy... I've never felt comfortable or okay whenever I visit cemeteries. I always fall sick on that day and this time as well! Everything ended at about 11am and we went back to Anna's house to prepare for check in- in 住家.

I went to Minmin's house and finished up her pudding full of love while my parents are busy packing the stuff. LOL. Okay la, I'm not that bad. I didn't bring much, just 2 set of clothes and some random stuffs, I already packed the items properly. My parents only need to help me bring them over to 住家! hehe.

Had my hair rebonded with Jammy cousin and ting ting cousin. ^^ Satisfied with my hair now! And I paid like, 150RM for the rebonding + treatment + cut. LOL. about $70 sgd for my hair length! What a steal right. LOL! The auntie that rebonded my hair was abit rough though! When she was helping me wash off the rebonding cream, she made all my earrings come off LOL! I had 5 earrings on me that day and when she finished washing, I had none left! T^T and my ear was a little swollen! roar.

Went around Layang meeting people and minmin's friends. Slack in 住家. Had red wine at night. Was playing some card games with minmin and whoever lose have to drink 1 glass of red wine. AND I KEPT LOSING! roar. But nvm la, she's only 10! Best is don't drink. So I drank like about, 4 glasses and I felt hot LOL. My face was super red and I felt dizzy! Tonned that night and trained back to singapore on Thursday at 6.30am in the morning LOL! Went home, slept. Doc appointment, eye checkup. went home, SLEEEEEEP! ^^

 My newly rebonded hair and my old hair. Hair very flat now! But it's okay! No more messy and curly hair ends hehe! Oh, it's not a huge diff from pics. But if you see me in rl, my hair's not that puffy and messy anymore LOL. = huge diff! ^^ Okay la, I think this time was better than last time when I rebond. It was TOTALLY flat last time!  Oh and I'm ending my grandma's 100th day post with 2 collages and 1 angry bird slippers that I've bought in layang! MAD FLUFFY AND CUTE ^^. If only there's domokun. I would gladly buy 10pairs.

Okay ciaos!