About Me

"No one is in control of your happiness."

Michelle, 17. I'm not who you think I'm supposed to be, I'm not as strong as you think and I'm not as happy as you think I am. I blog for satisfaction, and hopefully, I may be able to inspire/help others out there.
I tweet about everything at @ @Ahlinq. and I share my moments HERE :D

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Short post #1

Just a short post. I'm currently very very very tired and at the same time, very very very excited because one of my cousin's gettin' married on Saturday and tomorrow night I'll be over @ Malaysia to celebrate my 4-5 of my uncle's 51 birthday HAHA. But.. I'm sad on the other hand as well. No English camp for me. :/ I've actually been looking forward to the camp.. But In the end, my parents said that I can not attend the camp as I'll be heading down to Malaysia after school. If I was given a choice, obviously I would want to stay for the day camp and as well as go for the celebration. ):

This week was a very very fun yet busy week for me. Cause my cousins came over ^^ ! They're so fun to be with! Cause they're like 7-8 years older then me, we don't connect much last time, there's big improvement now! We talked more then last time. Hmmm.. There's not much time for me to post anyways. So, I'll post when I get back from Malaysia I guess? :D Life's so enjoyable. I have a retarded male cousin. ^^ .

He's asking me to cheer up and not be sad now. LOL, no link =P well, he cannot read English so he's assuming that I'm sad now HAHA. Retarded, crazy yet funny. Shall elaborate next time when I'm free. ^^ Ohhhh, today something funny happened. I was in detention room with this "zhi bi" guy. He's super funny la cause he go and make our teacher there a Buddha LOL. But then Idk why, one part of me feel very guilty and sad for this poor thing. Gahhh. Idk what I'm typing/feeling etc. ^^ . NEXT POST PEEPOS. =D

Well, actually, I think I'm having quite a number of mixed feelings these few months. And I want you to know that It's all because of you. :) yes dudie. I care about you, as a friend! A lot of stuffs has happened to you. I hope you remain strong, and not cry anymore. Stay strong. Be positive and study well. I'm sure he'll be happy yeah. I hope you're reading my blog. (But I doubt you'll read it anyways). Still. I pray for you. All the best! Stay strong please. :')

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Never be dependent to anyone in this world because, even your shadow leaves you when you are in darkness.


One thing I realized in life:
-Never be dependent to anyone in this world because, even your shadow leaves you when you are in darkness.

Feeling rather depressed these few days. Read through my previous posts again. I think I was a much more happier person last time. I seriously don't know what happened. Probably because of the fact that someone has replaced me. Everything just feels so-not-right.

Anyways, I was sick this hole damn week. Awkward moments when teachers are teaching, and I'm like, breaking the silence in class, coughing/sniffing away. Had conversational Malay test on Monday, E2 was split to E3 and E1 cause our teacher didn't come. The teacher was real awesome because she helped us with the test! ^^ She allows us to open our textbooks and refer. Awesome! Stayed back and did the history project with Delanie, Andrea and Alyssa. We actually start out in school, but In the end, we decided to go Andrea's house instead. Then yeah, we took pics/videos and totally destroyed ourselves HAHA. But we had fun! ^^ Stayed till 9.30pm and headed home. Was freaking tired, washed up and just slept.

Nothing much on Tuesday I guess. I forgot what I did. Gah, whatever! Mass run on Wednesday, typical Wednesday again! Stayed back to do some work after school and attended band till 5 plus and went home with Jiaqi and Szehan. Bought 8 Ice lollipops for my parents, and they finished it within one night. Ohemgee.

Had PE on Thursday, we actually did mass workout in the hall with other sec3/4 people! Whole body ache afterwards. Nothing much as well. Bought Ice lollipops for parents again, took bus home and slept!

Friday's the only day I look forward to every week because there's DnT and omg there's only freaking 3 lessons. Dnt, eng and history. HAHAHA! I finished my Dnt car model, yay. Did class duty after school while waiting for stupid Yi Ken to finish having his lunch! Kept on going back to class and to disturb Mr Wee's class @ 1E3 teehee. After 45mins, King Yi ken finally finish his lunch and decided to return my 839778679 miss calls. Separated color papers and began "making" the 'Green corner'. Jia Le and S S helped out too, there's even one observer which was the mighty Jun kang lols. Was pretty awkward cause I was the only girl there .__. So decided to blast music in class for entertainment!

The sound cable was missing and I thought Barnabas had it so I texted him. No replies, I got impatient and texted Mr Cher to ask Barnabas up the class when they'e done with whatever they're doing. Stupid Mr cher reply my text with "Request denied, Pls try again ltr".  Act cute! So I called him and asked him where they were at. Mr cher was nerdy! He wants to play Hide N seek. SO, they have the advantages cause they're already hiding!!!! So, I went all around the school and finally found them at science lab on the ground floor, wth. Then  in the end, Barnabas tell me the cable's not with him, so that means I ran around the school for NOTHING! *&^%#@Y&^%TEW#Q#W@TYUP:L(OI*U&^%#EWQ*&^%#@^&%#*I^&(*^&%T%EQWQEE

Went back to class, slacked abit and finished the green corner. Decided to head for late lunch with Jiale, ss and Jun Kang (cause I've not eaten) afterward. Had lunch and Jiale wants to pierce his ears. Tsk, paikia.

So, jiale and JunKang went to pierce their ears. In the end leh? Failed! Cause both of them removed the piercing afterward and they couldn't get the ear stick up their hole. HAHAHA, sound wrong, anyways. Jiale failed miserably and he decides to go pierce 2 more tomorrow. omg, I think he's a bit mad. God bless you.



CTRL + ALT + DEL
Control yourself, look for an alternative solution and delete the situation that hurts you. :)

Friday, March 18, 2011



omg, I'm sick. Such a wasted holiday hah. I really really really really really feel like cutting off my throat ._. . Hmm. I forgot what happened these few days. omg la, I feel so old can zz. I think I'm old already. Memory failing soon. .-. I went for band on wed and thurs! omg holycows. And y'know what? I stayed from morning 7.45am to 6pm+ on Wednesday HEH. =B Hmm. Taught new juniors fingerings and scales. Not bad, they quite fast learning I think except for one, but he's transferred to the Frenchies! ): Its okay! I still have 2. HAHAHAHA. Vivian was sick too and she left early for both days. LUCKILY I still have Chun Hui! =D first day the juniors very shy, then end of day leh?! start to disiao my height alr lo. very good lo. CHEH. and I told them i was sec 5. but they didn't believe. Lalala. then I lied and told them I'm from 2t3. :B THEY ACTUALLY BELIEVED. hahaha. :D

we have one really cute junior name han kiet. we keep on disiao him say he is yewkiet de bro cus they both have "kiet" behind HAHAHA.^^ he also very disiao one lo . Then the other one was rather shy and he like have no confidence de, he kept on saying that he can't play, when he can't reach that note. cheh . Had section lunch @ Viwa with Trumpeters on Thursday, sat with Natalie and Iffah. There's this uncle that kept on disturbing them when they eat LOL. Then soon after, another one join in! THEN, they kept on staring and staring and staring at Natalie and sham(one of the junior sitted beside me). Then sham like don't dare eat like that, I feel that the uncles keep on staring at him, give him pressure only lo. LOL.went home with Jesline and Jiaqi at 4pm plus cus I was hungry AGAIN! ): And i really wanna go off! :x . so yeahhh hehe, we went viwa to have some food. =B and we talked cock all the way till 5+ . awesome much . ^^ went home and slept like a pig. =B

holidays are gonna be over soon ahhhhh. ): Holidays doesn't seem like holidays at all. Almost CCA everyday for some people. haaaaaaaaaaais! T_T ! And, I reformatted my blog. o-o I LOVE IT. :D

Monday, March 14, 2011

wisdom of shits.

HAHA, someone just sent forwarded me an email while I was watching pirates of the Caribbean 3. Thought I'd just share it cause I think it's pretty funny and hmm, "inspiring" you know. =D So here goes.



A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.
While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.
The dung was actually thawing him out!
He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy. 
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend. 
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut! 


An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"
The eagle answered, "Sure , why not."
So the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up. 


A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull.
"They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree.
The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.

Sunday, March 13, 2011


Awesome. This week's pretty boring haha. Next week starting from tomorrow, shall be the March holidays. But anyways, holidays doesn't seem like holidays at all. I still have to return to school or band! Argh. Really pity those SYF peoples, they have to go for band practices for almost every day. But well, I'm sure their hard work will pay off. ^^ Went to school on Monday - Thursday. Typical school days wahaha. Well, I kinda forget what happened already. But one thing I'll never forget, is the fight me and Zoe had on Thursday which was on the last day of school. Well, I'm pretty sure she won't want me to elaborate on it, but I will. Since I think she misunderstood me or anything.

During PE, my friend injured her leg while playing street soccer, so Alyssa and some others(I think?) bought her to the sick bay. Then after PE, I went to take a look at my friend outside, through the window. I was like. Asking if she's okay, then halfway, Zoe bumped me away with alot of strength, well, I didn't expect that, and then I almost lost my balance. Then I looked at her, expecting an apology. But in the end, what did she give me? She looked at me, and gave me a "-.-" face. Then I said whatever and walked off. She heard me and whispered to her friends, "walao, I don't like Michelle sia". Like please luh. Whisper for what. Don't dare openly say it in my face? =) so I kinda said that to her. Then she was like, "purposely for you to hear one what" -.-'' . LAME LOL. Then okaaay. I walked off, I didn't want to argue with her -.-.

Then she went around telling people what happened just now. Okay fine, whats worst is, she was like totally twisting what I said/do. -.- She told people that I didn't dare to look at her face, when I confronted her that she should tell me in my face =) . She even go around and tell others that I scold her ccb. -.- Like please, I won't use ccb on people that has no cb. ^^ anyways, she kept going around and tell ppl what happened, she's like, want the whole world to know what happened. whatever la. then she started saying things like, "no wonder no friends." to me. like please? I don't stick or SUCK UP to people and cling onto them. =_= I move around, unlike you who only stick to 3 people. And please don't fucking put words into others people's mouth -.- . Did Delanie even say such things? What did you say? you own self think la hor -.- . And I'm pretty sure I have more friends then you =B . Just cause I don't have cliques, doesn't mean I don't have friends =) . I chose not to be in cliques fyi.

Why did people even want to spread rumors about you? You started it leh please, double-sided person. Calling me double-sided, when you yourself is the one who started the nonsense. hah. -.- whatever hor. In front of me, tell me all the things of your best friend that irritates you, I only listen and try to state the facts. then you leh. go around telling your best friend that I gossip bout them . -.- grow up leh. Dare do, dare admit hor, so hum? I'm pretty sure, you'll go around telling people that I anyhow type in my blog. Please la, you think, you got do or not. I don't need people to trust/believe me. I'm just describing, what kind of person you are. So, believe it or not(readers), up to you. You want to say that Im lying, by all means. ^^

eh, if you're reading this post hor, be honored hor, I spend 15mins to write down all these . HAH =)

ANYWAYS! =D don't let that immature kid spoil my mood HAHAHAHAHA. Had HBL on friday. Then chiong movies. =B . I've watched about, 6 movies in total I guess? I'ma rate them! =D

The baster (2010) - This is quite a funny movie. ^^ Somehow, I like it =B ! 7/10 . I think it has a feeling of satisfaction, cause in the end, the guy/girl finally got what they wanted! ^^ in front, was kind of boring. But its okay. ^^ HEHE.

Gulliver's Travel (2010) - 2nd time watching this, never fail to make me laugh when I'm depress HAHAHAHA. 8/10. Love Gulliver so much. ^^

How to train your dragon (2010)- 3rd time watching this, 2nd time only watch half in school, but anyways. I LOVE THE DRAGON LA, IT'S SO FREAKING CUTE! =D If only Earth has dragons as pets. WAHAHA. then you'll see people flying around with dragons! AWESOME. 9/10! AND, the soundtrack, is really, really, really awesome. awesome story plot too. =D

Black Swan (2011) - Hmm, This story's kind of messed up, but I think I got the story ^^. I thought this movie's gonna be a horror movie cause the title is black swan instead of white HAHA. so yeah, quite awesome too. 5/10 . =)

Pirates of the Caribbean 1 -3rd time watching. awesome. speechless, AWESOME! 10/10
pirates of the Caribbean 2 - 2nd time watching. hmm, doesn't link with the above one at the start, but oh well! IT'S STILL FREAKING AWESOME =D 10/10

Well, I think there's no time for me to watch Caribbean 3 cause I'm tired, and there's band tomorrow! =B So I've decided to post instead (Y) .

went out today with dears =B . Had few rounds of DDR and caught the movie "My ex haunted lover". I love it, hmm, it's not that bad, nor that good cause it's pretty predictable. overall rating should me 7/10 =D
I shall post next time. ^^




I GOT BACK MY RESULTS =D! Hmm, I'm not satisfied with it. I've did BADLY. BADLY! But, I'm surprised that I'll score an A2 for History. Cause I seriously, didn't have the time to memorize History. I did read through it a little I guess. But oh well. I'm speechless. I'm not in syf, I guess, I'm gonna have the time to read up on history now haha. I'm gonna start to prepare for SA. ^^ Someone, told me not to slack this year. I shall follow what he told me to. =B I'll try my best not to slack that much! x_x

 Very disappointed in Maths and chinese. I did quite okay for maths for CA only, I totally flunked maths for class tests... I think I got an 0. So, I think that my class test marks pulled me down, badly. As for chinese, Idk, I've never failed more then 5 marks for chinese before. this shall be the first. I don't know what happened. I was always at the border line.. hais.

Sunday, March 6, 2011




Today's a pretty fine day. Was out almost the whole day I guess haha. Actually, Idk what to post about! Hmmm... I gave my room a new makeover, by shifting my bed and table around HAHA. Sound nerdish but oh well. At least there's changes! ^^ Hmmm... This week's pretty boring I guess. Normal routines, school, cca blablabla. This week, there's something wrong with my eyes and I couldn't tahan contacts! So I had to use specs in school/ outdoors. ): People said I look weird with specs. I so oh-totally-agree with them omg. I don't like it when I wear specs, but i've no choice. ): my eye hurt whenever thr's lens inside! OH WELL =D


Had class outing on friday after school. It's kinda pretty boring haha. Ball games and pouring of water again. 2nd outing and we're playing with water again! =D after outing, mr cher blanja us to ice. ^^ MR CHER, IS WET. AWESOMEEEEEEE! ^^


Ohhhhhhh, I re-aranged my wardrobe again as well. Hmm.. I seriously have to get rid of clothes that I don't wear.. blogshop! =DD Ima start a blogshop soon again I guess... do support? 2nd time saying this HAHA.

anyways! I bought new contacts ^^ brand is under "coolcolors" @ $25 bucks each box. I bought 2 box cause different degrees ^^. I was using geo last time. It's really.. dry and not so comfy. I told the uncle that, and I wanted to try new lenses. and so, he gave me a free pair of monthly transparent lens from biomedics 38 o.o he's awesome!

I LIKE THE COLORLENS UNDER COOLCOLORS OMGGGGGG. they feel so damn fucking not dry and I feel so comfortable wearing them! =D no discomforts/dry at all when I was out today for about... 11am to 5pm. 6hours. Trying black... gonna try other colours soon. :B


Only have lens in my > eye. so, no difference. :B CAN WEAR TO SCHOOL. bwahaha.

went for cousin's birthday "party" today. Had fun. ^^ also, very full! @_@ HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAY COUSSSSSINNNNNNNNNN ;DDDD. Miss the old times so much. we're so awkward now =/ . and dad told me that when I was young I always play with my cousin de bro, which is still my cousin luh. But I don't know his name. I have no memories of him! I FEEL SO OLD. ):  But I do have pictures of me with him when I was young... BUT! I DON'T REMEMBER HIM omg. T_T

Monday tomorrow again hah... monday blues. sayonara peepos. :D



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