I seriously don't know how to face you anymore... You've changed so much..Just over 10months.. I no longer understand you, know you. It's just, so different from the friendship we used to have..
Our thoughts are so, different.. Yes, It's you. My closest friend...
"Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."
Well, it's just so different, I don't feel the joy no more. It's double the sorrow.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid, sensitive or something...
But I really can't face you anymore.. I don't know what obstacle we're facing... I don't know what causes our friendship to change.. I don't know how to mend the friendship anymore... I don't know what to do...
I'm very tired of this... I really do. I think, I'm such a crybaby. Only know how to cry and couldn't think of any ways to solve the problem... sorry Jing, I really don't know what happened between us.
I don't know what's the problem or obstacle between us.. It's too... powerful. I can't think of any possible ways to break it. The only thing I can do now, is nothing except to cry, to make me feel better.
Time check : 12: 09
Michelle fell down from the cliff.. she's clinging onto the edge of the cliff.. she dont know how she fell down from the cliff.. she wants to survive, she dont wanna die and become a memory to others...she want to continue.. but she dont know how.. she cannot find the answer. she have no strength to pull herself up again and enjoy the beautiful scenery she once enjoyed. it's very... scary..
No, she's not hesitating. she's trying every single ways to find the answer and to pull herself up. but she cant.. she cant take it anymore.. the gravitation is pulling her down day by day.. she cannot pull herself up anymore. its too difficult. she's running out of energy and she doesn't know what to do..
Time check : 12: 35 am
whatever, I feel so saddist. saddism. ;-; .
Okay, time to cheer up. Crying won't solve any problems but make you feel better .
Cried my eyes out, it's dry and pain now. After getting this post done, I shall enjoy my sleep.
woke up at 8am today, miracle. But went back to sleep till 9:20am. .__."
Was suppose to pack stuffs, prepare myself and head to the lib for revision.
Luckily, Jing didn't oversleep like me. She went there at around 9:57 and the lib was full edy.
No seats at all, all taken. So, we had to share.
Decided to try revising at Venus' house last min. (But I knew I won't concentrate cause of the food there!)
Well, I was right. I didn't revise much at all -.- . Bused down to cwp to meet Jing.
strolled around till 12pm and bought lunch @ mac, takeaway to venus' house.
Had lunch and start revising @ 1pm. Blasted the whole room with music. And obviously, We didn't study but play -.-'' gosh. Well, at least I memorised the 3 C's for history! >_>"
Promise to study real hard tomorrow!
decided to call annabelle to come "Study" with us.
called her, and she came @ about 3+ , then, we did study a little before we get carried away by videos on youtube. @_________@" . we were laughing like mad while watching the videos .
Trained down to cck @ 5.20pm to meet a seller for a cartoon designed hoodie. ^^" . Bought it @ $10 .
and trained back to woodlands . =] Decided to go waterfront later to slack with belle,jing and venus.
But we cancelled it the last minute cause it was too dark and late. Venus took about, 1hour to shower :x.
Venus' mum doesn't seem happy today, maybe cause venus was distracted by my singapore true ghost story book. Laughs.
anyway, to cut the long story short, after venus finished her washing up. we went to horizon for dinner.
had longan ice and coke float. laughs, the auntie wasn't that nice. she didn't pour the coke first before adding
in the ice-cream resulting = overflow of drink. ._.'' .
nvmz, 3rounds of PIU after that. dead tired and sprained my foot I guess. It hurts when I just tilt my foot a little.. After PIU, we took neoprints, bought drinks @ mac afterwards and home sweet home next.
Time check : 12:56 am
Wow, I sure took long to type this post...
Sorry, to you and you.
I'm feeling very vexed right now, I really appreciate your advices and tips.
But, I don't think I want to go steady right now. Sorry.
I'm sorry that I didn't reply to your messages and calls anymore.
The feelings aint real, it's just the typical feeling you get when you are close with a girl.
We'll just be normal friends if you don't mind. No more than that.
You'll friend the girl in your dreams soon , all the best for your O lvls .
I'm gonna MIA my phone on sun - next wed to concentrate on my revision.
Please do not contact me unless urgent. Thank you.
You should revise too..
Time check : 1:04am.
Alright, time to sleep. Hopefully, I'll find the answer to the mysterious obstacle that we're facing now tomorrow when I wake up .
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