I just had to post. I realized, I'm such a fucking bitch that cries over small matters. I'm such a fucking bitch to petend that I'm okay when in fact, I'm not at all. I'm such a fucking bitch for not letting my friends know how I felt. I guess I just wanted to protect them and end up hurting myself so fucking much? Fuck it.

Yeah. I'm such a fucking bad influence. I should just fuck off from you like what your mum told me to do so.
It hurts so fucking much that I've cried straight after calling you. Such a big fucker, who pretends to be strong, doesn't care, and doesn't mind. Well.. In fact, I'm not strong. I DO care and I DO mind..

A phone call from you, ruins everything.

Fuck it. I'm crushed. Thanks alot. I think, this is the 1st time I've ever cried non-stop, cared so much, mind so much about what someone said to me. Thanks.
I'll do as you wish, I won't look her up. Unless she finds me. I will be there for her when she needs me, but she need not be there for me when I need her.
Friendship is only using the other party, right? As you wish.